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It's my dream to be one of those lucky freshmen of ITB's Faculty of Art and Design 2k11. I believe in God and myself. Well it's only 3 days away from the final entrance test! So wish me a tons of luck, people!!!
Call me misanthrope, pathetic, failure of human being, anything you like--But I'm entangled by my intense hatred towards human right now.
At this rate, I could say that I hate almost anyone who gets in my way or irritates me, goes for my own friends and family too.
I don't even know why is this happening. Maybe up there, Lucifer is smiling, upon his finding of his new puppet; me.
So, with all thou respect, I suggest you to behave your best in front of me, since I got so sensitive and easily irritated (no, I'm not on PMS), or else I will end up hating you or at least throwing sarcasms at you, deep inside my mind. I don't know how long this poker face of mine will lasts, anyway.
Here I am, listening to Soil & "Pimp" Sessions' songs, while thinking why people are being so annoying these days. They can only criticize what I'm doing, while there are still a lot more things that they cannot do, I can do. They can only see me if I'm fit to their criteria, while most of the time, I'm almost invisible, just a supernumerary in their so-called decent life. They can only brag for what they have or what they had achieved, to satisfy their thirst of recognition and feed their pride, while I don't think that it's necessary to do that, not to mention 'veiled' showoff. They can only act like a hypocrite while I know deep down they are actually not, it's their dignity that pushes 'em to do so, that's all. They can only say and do what they like without thinking about how am I feeling or how would I react that time, while I act as nonchalant as possible towards them.
When you read this post, some of you might think who am I saying things like that while I myself has many flaws? Yes you're right. After all, I'm just an ordinary human being. I'm also annoying and irritating at some rates. But I'm also longing for perfection. So is it wrong if I stand up for my opinion and hatred towards society?
Or perhaps it is people like you, who makes me hate the whole population.
- Play The Sims 3. I've been craving for this for so long, I think I'll turn into a wandering ghost if couldn't play it!
- Buy myself a pair of fine boots and Star Wars' stormtrooper helmet. Then wear them while walking down the crowded street, head to the park, and take some pictures along the way.
- Go to Japan for culinary tour. KIMOCHI~~
- Get him as my boyfriend. Then try to make out more passionately. Whoa. Just kidding about the last line.
- Meet Skandar Keynes and Jake Gyllenhaal in person, then have an intimate photobox session with each of them.
- Show 'em (my friend, schoolmates) my sarcastic nature on Twitter. I mean, on my PRIMARY twitter account. And watch their responses.
- And finally..............die as a saint and go to heaven O:)
(Uh.. Is it still possible, considering the previous points?)
Dear tummy,
Let's just be friends from now on, 'kay?
Sincerely, imaginary butterflies.
--after some time later--
Dear heart,
I do really apologize for the breakage. Do you need a band?
Sincerely, feelings.
Every time I try to move on
I just can't leave you easily
But deep down inside, I really knew
That I'm just a puppet of your loneliness show
Then when you've find someone else
You would leave me
And when you're being left
You would come back
I knew it
I know you
I'm tired
I have an urge to quit playing in your game
But my heart whispered to me,
"No, don't leave."
You had my weak spot, gentleman
Tonight I received a package that I've been waiting for.
See? It's from Wondershoe! :D
Yep, inside the package there were 2 boxes..
..of two pair of shoes that my older sister had bought earlier for my (late) birthday present :D woot woots thank you sis!! Me love ya!!♥♥♥
It's according to my likings.. Lovely, isn't it? ;)
Just so you know, I have 2 twitter accounts, 2 blogs, and 3 e-mail address. I'm feeling like someone with a twisted personality -_- but this is not what I want to tell you this time. The point is, on both of my twitter accounts, I just posted 2 quotes; catchy quotes to be exact. And I like 'em. And from now onwards, whenever I find another quote-of-the-day, I'll put the hashtag #QOTD too.
This quote is actually taken from here. I do really agree with this statement; sometimes gestures or body languages are able to speak more than words can do. Me― in a fukkin situation where I really pissed off but I can't say a word for some reasons (or if I was too lazy to even speak)― I'd just simply roll my eyes. Yeah!
I just found it this morning and it was like "oh, I'm pretty sure that some people wouldn't agree with this but for me this quote goes for most of men." Well, probably this might explain why it's so hard to find a good man.. lol jk :pSo, what are your quotes of the day? :-)
I just re-new this blog.
(Idk, maybe to comemmorate my 17th birthday?)
And too bad I had to remove and change a thing or two.
(Look! The navigation bar is gone and that's too bad :'/)
However, it looks better or worse, it's your to decide..
Now I feel like an old teapot; only used once in a while, and most of the time remain dusty in the cupboard.
:(
It all started from a joke, a silly bet.
I waited with my ice cream that felt a little bit too much.
I stood and looked around,
And hey there you are.
Inside your magic car,
We talked a bit,
Suddenly you held my hand,
Freezed a moment,
And you said "we're like a pair of lovers",
I said yes with a flat tone and tried to sound as if I was also joking,
But I just can't tell the truth which lies deep down my chest.
Surrounded by the silent trees,
The music from the car stereo,
Backseat,
You placed a seal in me.
I can't remember how fast the time flew as we're having a good time,
But I do remember your scent,
The texture of your hair,
The wetness of your sweat,
Your blurry eyes when you gazed me,
Your husky voice as we talked,
My hands were trembling and you realized,
My heart was beating fast and so did yours― we realized.
I felt funny at some moments,
I never thought that we could end up like this.
Everything seems to be okay,
So when you asked me to keep the secret,
I just nodded and promised.
I love to see you smile and laugh,
How you cuddled me like anyone else never did,
And how we spent our afternoon unexpectedly.
Well,
After I pondered and again― had a little chat with you,
I realized something.
I realized that―
I've just made a contract with a devil like you.
An intoxicating devil that I couldn't ever forget.
I can't help but fallen for you.
These are some of the random pictures I took.
Mostly about World Cup, anyway.
Take a look..
Your smile, my spirit?
This is a very very random sticker that I got from my daddy this evening. It is written "SENYUM-MU SEMANGAT-KU" and there's a grinning woman between the two words. How random. However, I sticked it to my wardrobe.
New bed buddy
I just bought that cute-33cm-huggable-plush, and I put it in my bed, along with Mr. Kuma, my teddy bear. What? You don't know what it is? Whatta shame! It's Zakumi, World Cup 2010 official mascot. And I'll sleep with it from now on ;)
Stock & supplies
Yeah, I prepared it for World Cup's final and third place play-off :D
But Cadbury's hot chocolate is the most faithful company of all.
Three potatoes, edited by Paint application
I saw these potatoes in my kitchen, and out of nowhere, I got the idea.
The right potato was complaining on how his head is bigger than his friends. The middle and the left potato tried to makes him feel better by saying, "size and look doesn't matter to us" and "yes, every potato has their own unique features and you should be proud of it". Whatta good friends.
My cat voted for Spain!
Have you ever heard about Paul the octopus from Germany which voted Spain for semifinal and it was coincidentally right? Ok, I was talking about it with my friend and he inspired me to do almost the same thing. I have a cat, I put two transparent plastic containers which I had put two pieces of fish on each. It's the same size. Just so you know, three times experiment (I used chicken bones on the third experiment) and my cat always choose the Spain's side! Wow! Like owner, like pet.
A friend of mine once told me,
"Your sin is loving bad boys"
Well, he was only joking, but I think what he said wasn't entirely wrong.
I've fallen for some bad guys a few times in my life, and it's often indeed.
My last ex for instance (sorry, no offense dude :p)
After I broke up, I tried my luck with another bad guy. Actually he wasn't the only one, but for some reasons he was the one who caught my attention. I don't care what others said about him, I just wanna have some fun and feel what I'd like to feel.
At first I enjoyed being close with him, even if indirectly, but as the time goes by, I guess we didn't match each other. So our relationship became strained until finally.. We lost contact. *sigh
After I was no longer interested in him, I looked for another guy. Well, being loveless is rather boring after all.
And I met this guy. Actually I've known him since last year, but I'm not close to him.
Sorry but I can't give any further spoilers about him― but one thing for sure, I believe that he's not a bad guy, even though he's surrounded by some bad guys and there's no guarantee that he won't be astray.
The question is, am I falling for this guy?
It might be a temporary crush, or even it's just a sense of wonder..
Only God knows.
I don't understand.
Yesterday a friend of mine told me about a fun website named Omegle.
There, you can chat anonymously with some anonymous chat mate from all over the world without any sign-in. Try it, it'll be fun, especially when you want to practice your english skill ;)
And also if you'd like to release your alter-ago, lying, disguising, or something else (I hope it's not included in cyber crime.......lol)
For example, my chat with a Brazilian guy this morning.
See? So many lies and grammatical mistakes I've done in the chat...............sorry fella! *LMAO
There, you can chat anonymously with some anonymous chat mate from all over the world without any sign-in. Try it, it'll be fun, especially when you want to practice your english skill ;)
And also if you'd like to release your alter-ago, lying, disguising, or something else (I hope it's not included in cyber crime.......lol)
For example, my chat with a Brazilian guy this morning.
You: hey
Stranger: Say hi
Stranger: hello
You: how r u doin?
Stranger: fine and u?
You: good, thanks
Stranger: and what u name?
You: michelle ------ lie :p
You: and you?
Stranger: gustavo
Stranger: where u from?
You: im from australia ------ another lies, lol
You: and you?
Stranger: nice michelle
Stranger: i from brazil
You: oh okay
Stranger: =)
You: may I know ur age?
Stranger: shure
Stranger: 22 and you?
You: 20 ------ sorry, more lies XD
Stranger: so
Stranger: what did u tell me?
You: hmm
Stranger: hehe
Stranger: nothing?
Stranger: please tell me you are a normal people
You: i don't know, yet hehe
You: yes im normal..
Stranger: when a say I male
Stranger: they disconnect
Stranger: I from brazil
Stranger: they disconnect
You: hmm, strange peoples
Stranger: yes
You: i think nothing's wrong with that
Stranger: one girl from denmark is looking for sex
Stranger: i think all here is looking for sex
You: ew, i hope u're not
Stranger: no
Stranger: internet its not the best location for that
You: yeah, i'm agree
Stranger: michelle right?
You: yes
Stranger: nice name
You: thanks hehe i think it's ordinary
Stranger: yes but is nice anyway
Stranger: sorry if my english is a little bad hehe
You: and your name's too
You: yeah nevermind hehe
Stranger: heheh what?
You: hm let me think
Stranger: hey
Stranger: its day in there right? hehe
You: yeah, and how about there?
Stranger: here? no no hehe
Stranger: here is yesterday yet hehehe
You: wow, so it's still friday?
Stranger: yees
Stranger: hehe and im at home friday night
You: haha
Stranger: its cold today
You: why don't you goin somewhere?
Stranger: ranning
Stranger: dont have money to go out today
You: raining?
You: oh i see
You: well I also will be home tonight, haha
Stranger: yees
Stranger: i think this is te correct word
Stranger: why?
You: i feels somehow too lazy to goin out tonight
Stranger: but still saturday morning right?
You: beside, i don't know where to be hehe
You: yes, so?
Stranger: so you already lazy?
You: uh huh, I guess
Stranger: heheh
Stranger: so michelle
Stranger: you always talk here??
You: no
You: guess what
You: i've just found this web yesterday
You: a friends of mine told me
You: hehehe
Stranger: this is too crazy
Stranger: you like here?
You: hmm.. kinda
You: im a newbie anyway
You: how bout you?
Stranger: so so
Stranger: too many crazy people in one place
You: crazy people?
Stranger: yes
Stranger: they just talk crazy things
You: for instance?
Stranger: i dont remember what is instance
You: i means for example
Stranger: oooh
Stranger: one girl was looking for little dicks for example]
Stranger: you dont talk much
You: err, thanks God i had a normal chat friend by now heheh
You: sorry
Stranger: yeees
Stranger: hahaha
You: im kinda quiet girl (some people says)
Stranger: i guess i normal close this peoples
You: ?
Stranger: huuuum
Stranger: my english sorry
You: it's okay
You: anyway u r a brazilian rite?
Stranger: yes
Stranger: =)
Stranger: hehe
Stranger: tell the name of your city
You: can you give me some example of brazilian traditional food?
You: adelaide ------ i mean jakartadelaide.. sorry brazilian fella! ROFL
Stranger: adelaide
You: ?
Stranger: i know by name
Stranger: traditional food? let me think
You: what do you know by name?
You: okay
Stranger: your city
Stranger: how can i say the food for you in english?
You: fine, just say it in your english
You: i mean in ur language
Stranger: hehehe ok
Stranger: but tell me what u like to eat
You: hmm
You: i like to eat pizza, fried rice, chips, cheese on a stick, etc.
You: oh, and have i told u that im not an australian?
Stranger: noo
Stranger: so?
Stranger: where u from
You: no?
You: im from indonesia, actually ------ nah, this is the truth!
You: but i stay in australia
Stranger: oh nice
You: you know, for college and some kind of things
You: nice?
Stranger: yes i know
Stranger: tell me
Stranger: r u go eat brazilian food?
You: that's why i asked you some example of brazilian food ^^
You: i don't know
Stranger: but you cook?
You: yes, sometimes
Stranger: look
Stranger: http://canadafm.files.wordpress.com/2008/05/casa-da-feijoada.jpg
Stranger: this is Feijoada
You: hmm, let me see..
Stranger: =)
You: wow
You: what ingredients used in it?
Stranger: let me see
Stranger: maybe this help
Stranger: http://www.eatdangerously.com/feijoada.html
Stranger: but in google u can find more
Stranger: r u there?
You: hmm I see
You: thank you
You: yes im still here hehe
Stranger: i think this food is dificult to make
You: yeah, I think so haha
Stranger: maybe u can make this today for your lunch hehehe
You: do you often eat it?
You: i don't think i could hehe
Stranger: no
Stranger: its a heavy food
Stranger: and not for all day
Stranger: its more for holiday
Stranger: restaurant
You: oh, I se
You: *see
You: how it taste?
Stranger: hmm
Stranger: its good
Stranger: hehe
Stranger: do u know rice and beans?
You: great im hungry now, haha
You: yes, so?
Stranger: heheheh
Stranger: i dont know how to explain a tast here heheheh
Stranger: dont have any brazilian restaurant in your city?
You: its okay hehe
You: no.. i haven't seen any
You: what do you eat for dinner?
Stranger: hmmm
Stranger: chicken
Stranger: fish
Stranger: meat
Stranger: hehehe
Stranger: pasta
Stranger: depends on the day
You: nice
Stranger: do u like barbecue?
You: it seems that u eat much hehe
You: yeeees i do
You: im a meat lovers, lol
Stranger: heheheh
Stranger: here wa call Churrasco
Stranger: we
You: oh, Churrasco = barbecue?
Stranger: yes
Stranger: you eat more steak right?
Stranger: ribs
You: yeah, they're tasty
You: but i only eat steak sometimes
Stranger: brazilian barbecue is diferent
You: what the differences?
Stranger: the meat
Stranger: the cut
You: the meat?
Stranger: http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/5/5c/Churrasco_carioca.jpg
Stranger: take a look
Stranger: http://images.google.com.br/imgres?imgurl=http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/5/5c/Churrasco_carioca.jpg&imgrefurl=http://pt.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ficheiro:Churrasco_carioca.jpg&usg=__KEZKku4FR6ZWbPjG_MOki2jatyw=&h=2000&w=3008&sz=2297&hl=pt-BR&start=24&um=1&tbnid=cYGFU9kAWA103M:&tbnh=100&tbnw=150&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dchurrasco%26ndsp%3D20%26hl%3Dpt-BR%26safe%3Doff%26rlz%3D1C1_____enBR333BR333%26sa%3DN%26start%3D20%26um%3D1
Stranger: this is better for u understand
You: wait
Stranger: i love churrasco hehehe
You: it takes time to load the pics
You: but as I see on the thumbnail, they're look delicious hehe..
You: great, i've seen the whole pic
Stranger: heheheh
Stranger: the smell is too good
You: wow
Stranger: churrasco is more easy then feijoada
Stranger: that was i think
You: and what food on the upper right corner?
You: hmm
Stranger: in the photo?
Stranger: bread and garlic sauce
Stranger: toasted
Stranger: its good
You: yeah
Stranger: michelle
You: hmm delicious
Stranger: do you have facebook, msn or something like that?
You: i have a msn
Stranger: can i add you?
You: sure, shyaasicko@hotmail.com ------ my secondary-rarely-used msn..
You: anyway my roommate want to take over the computer -.- ------ err, do I even have a roommate?
You: sorry I have to leave
You: okay?
Stranger: ahh
You: nice chat
Stranger: but i add you ok?
You: okay
Stranger: we talk another time
You: yeah, see ya ^^
You have disconnected.
See? So many lies and grammatical mistakes I've done in the chat...............sorry fella! *LMAO
Another thing, I had a quarrel with my half brother.. Well I can't explain it here but I want to make it up.. But since our thought and view are different, I have no other way unless to discuss it with him.. Such a hell, I can't imagine what if I lose him.. and how many teardrops should I repeat. Whatever. But anyway, I'm really afraid if he gets angry with me.. I've been scolded by him once in a student council's simulation and OMFG I think I would cry (again) if he keep scolding me, just like when my daddy starts to scolding me and yelling at me. Rawrrr. I'm kinda dilemma whether to reply his SMS or not. Such an egoist sister, am I?
By the way, sorry for the post I've been posted lately which only contains of my daily spill outs. I've promise this blog will be more artsy, soon
By the way, sorry for the post I've been posted lately which only contains of my daily spill outs. I've promise this blog will be more artsy, soon
Damn it! I fell of at my school this afternoon and it left some bloody wounds on my right leg. Ew, it's smarts.
And guess what? I haven't finished my student council's task yet which I have to submit tomorrow. Geez. It's feels like "oh I wanna runaway from all these madness to a place where I could live with no burdens" or "oh I think I'd better not going to school tomorrow" and so, but it's absolutely not a solution. But my procrastinating habit was on its peak, I feels like I won't be able to finish it all tonight.. Oh man, I really really want to runaway but there is no escape. The only way is I have to face these, finish these. But I think I couldn't, I would cry instead
And guess what? I haven't finished my student council's task yet which I have to submit tomorrow. Geez. It's feels like "oh I wanna runaway from all these madness to a place where I could live with no burdens" or "oh I think I'd better not going to school tomorrow" and so, but it's absolutely not a solution. But my procrastinating habit was on its peak, I feels like I won't be able to finish it all tonight.. Oh man, I really really want to runaway but there is no escape. The only way is I have to face these, finish these. But I think I couldn't, I would cry instead
Don't read this post if you're hungry. I warn you.
(Honestly I'm kinda hungry when I was write this)
Somehow I had a flashback and remember something.
One of my favorite snack (?), you should try it!
It called cheese on a stick.
I used to buy it in Megamall Pluit, many years ago, approximately when I was an early elementary student or so. My brother likes it as well, and he is the one who remind me the name of the food.
It tastes fckin awesome, I even still remember how crunchy yet sweet the outer crust, how the cheese melt in my mouth and tongue, aww man it tastes soooo good!
Now it's currently on my top list favorite foods.
Oh God, this is one of heavenly food ever. In my opinion.
I hesitate it's still sell on Megamall Pluit, well I never been there for years, anyway. But it's rarely sell on my country--Indonesia, how will I satisfy myself?
I swear to myself, once I find a cheese on a stick stand, I will immediately buy and eat it like a beggar had a full turkey on the thanksgiving day, for sure.
My dearly cheese on a stick, come to mama! ♥
(Honestly I'm kinda hungry when I was write this)
Somehow I had a flashback and remember something.
One of my favorite snack (?), you should try it!
It called cheese on a stick.
I used to buy it in Megamall Pluit, many years ago, approximately when I was an early elementary student or so. My brother likes it as well, and he is the one who remind me the name of the food.
It tastes fckin awesome, I even still remember how crunchy yet sweet the outer crust, how the cheese melt in my mouth and tongue, aww man it tastes soooo good!
Now it's currently on my top list favorite foods.
Oh God, this is one of heavenly food ever. In my opinion.
I hesitate it's still sell on Megamall Pluit, well I never been there for years, anyway. But it's rarely sell on my country--Indonesia, how will I satisfy myself?
I swear to myself, once I find a cheese on a stick stand, I will immediately buy and eat it like a beggar had a full turkey on the thanksgiving day, for sure.
My dearly cheese on a stick, come to mama! ♥
First post on my second blog, great ♥ style="font-size:130%;">my first one -- yeah that's the objective why I made this blog.
This blog, if you compare with the first one, will be more, more, artsy *giggles*
Just like the title of this blog, I will write, draw and share something worthy.. At least worthy for me. However, usually I can only produces craps. Kidding :p
I will try to keep writing in english.. But I don't feel I could, 'cause I'm not really good on english, orally and fluently (so, I excusing for my bad grammar or word selection).
Well, while I'm practicing my english and my art skill, I hope you'll enjoy this page ;)
This blog, if you compare with the first one, will be more, more, artsy *giggles*
Just like the title of this blog, I will write, draw and share something worthy.. At least worthy for me. However, usually I can only produces craps. Kidding :p
I will try to keep writing in english.. But I don't feel I could, 'cause I'm not really good on english, orally and fluently (so, I excusing for my bad grammar or word selection).
Well, while I'm practicing my english and my art skill, I hope you'll enjoy this page ;)
